A whole year without a single blog??? What has my world come into?
There can only be one reason for the very long sleep mode (Princess Aurora, is that you?): I have been tremendously preoccupied with work and family - my primary concerns in this lifetime - overwhelmed by events that has made me too tired to blog. I can recall almost all anime series, seasons after seasons of police procedural dramas I have watched during the entire year.
Wait, if I were that busy, how did I get to watch all those??? Did I suddenly move to Venus where a day is 5,832 hours? With my mind and body being so tired the whole day, I would spend the night with an activity that requires less brain and energy. Nope, sex needed energy. So TV it was.
2013 was quite an ordeal, yes, and I could nearly say it was filled with unprecedented tribulations. Its first quarter was spent in working double time; it's kinda like double everything, I think. I needed to save as much financial resources as possible because of the looming threat to my job. Almost all my colleagues were worried about it because our job, no matter how they say that "we are not political," the institution is. Then I clearly remember how the second quarter went about with almost every day and night of tears and so much heart ache and frustration. Overrated? What would you say when the most notorious group of people that attacked your present work setup were the very ones you considered to be your best friend, protege, and even godson??? Not a day went by when I didn't ask myself where have I gone wrong? Was I really that evil to have generated these enemies so close to my heart? Everyday was a heartbreak. Coupled with the seeming threat of losing my job - my only bread and butter - plus the graduation of my children from high school and grade school respectively. I thought, what future can I give them? Graduation is not just the end of a level, it is also the beginning of the next stage in their lives. How can I provide for them if I lost my job? Those where just the regular everyday. Then there were special days, so special that I think I would have taken a physical beating more gladly than a single minute of it. So special that I had considered how I'd look either in a coffin or a correctional uniform. Had it been to my psychology background, I would have donned the classic straight-jacket with pride. Yes, that was 2013 2nd quarter.
3rd quarter was a different story, it started with a promise. The very first day that we met with this person - everything went 360! It was a bliss to know that even in politics, there are still persons like him who would consider the general welfare of the constituents in making leadership appointments. This time, I worked my butt off to prove that I am worth retaining, and that I am one with them in providing only what's best for the University. and so went the 4th quarter, with me proving to the new bosses, and almost to everybody in the University, that I deserve what I strive for. I enjoyed it so much (remember, ADHD) that it became my new normal. There were less financial benefits though (I admit) but the trust and confidence received is something that money cannot buy. There were plenty of acid tests along the way, as the saying goes, you cannot please everybody. Specially if their goal is to find fault. If you become so good that you start becoming a threat, now they find fault.
Then it's 2014! It seems that everything is falling rightfully in its proper places. Got my deanship, finally got a family car (2nd hand 20 yrold red toyota - dad said it's a girl's car), my children properly enrolled. Though the budget's quite tight (what with the high price of gasoline and no extra resources from book sales) I was making ends' meet satisfactorily. Sure, there are bush fires every now and then (like ppl ganging up on you, demolition campaigns through gossiping - my, how creative could they get!), but things are manageable with the support of selected trustworthy family and staff (pseudo-family).
So what's the bottomline here (credits to Mam Amy V. - love that prof!)? As I have adjusted to the demands of the present life, I believe I can manage to squeeze in some time for blogging - while waiting for crops to grow and factory products to be delivered in my virtual farm - that is.
What to write?? What to blog about??? Honestly the inspiration to blog again became strong as I watch SHERLOCK. I wish I was John Watson, companion to a Sherlock Holmes, so I could write as much about adventures and solving puzzling crimes. I wish I was Amy Pond, or Rose Tyler (I love her Doctor more) so I could learn from the past and prepare for the future. But since I neither am any of them, I will just be ME - the ADH psychologist with the passion for pop rock songs, Stephen King, anime and manga, who loves to write about everyday life.
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